by acting as a man in love, he became a man in love.

2008-11-14T12:17:00.003-02:00

A year ago or so, apart from the usual stress occuring from exams, I love study periods because I am spending with you and loving friends.

This academic year, in a different sch, study seems to be a solo-task to do which is quite boring. \on the other hand, understanding that i'm striving for myself... trying to suppress the external stress. i'm focusing on improving myself not for the sake of doing well than my peers but for doing well because from where I came from and what i am lacking of.

Well today and ytds, i'm reminscing times we met up to study, cuddle in a way of motivating and times we stress with our friends.

All the best for the papers and army, love ones.

2008-10-16T10:13:00.001-03:00

Fuck you. said the ordinary, to The Darkness.

Baby, I said everything will be fine. Will - future tense.

2008-10-13T12:25:00.003-03:00

Time crawls because I live my days to the fullest - pack them with studies, running, jeremy, friends, reading, family - basically, whatever i could do. it's all psychological.

:ife seems like this since school started. and i cant help feeling awed and amazed with the context i learn. but of cos that feelings do not help me cope to writing essays and the slightly-different marking system. I pray for my adaptation be on its top soon, because humans are meant to be 'survival of the fittest'. Let passion burn eternally.

Jeremy was enlisted last thurs. I've got to see him off. Parting was short-lived and a heavy heart for me. and i understand for him is a mixture of curiosity and fear of what the path ahead beholds. Although i had friends b4 him at army, complaining, whining, sulking and even had blows to their morale, i know jeremy is no exception. so i'm ready to embrace his negativity - anger, solemnness and disappointments. afterall Army is a combination of physical and mental challenges. How difficult it could be when they are interdependent - correlation.
whatever it is, it's a phase we gonna go through together.

since then, it's definitely feel damn different. Said that this confinement's objective is allowing recruits to adapt to military life. Enough said, people around them are to adapt too. People like me.

Our anniversary will mark a new era for us: Me at sch, He at Army. interestingly we can see that we are enrolling into institutions - education and military. Call it blessing in disguise. My school's workload requires so much of my time...and he's only out during block leaves and weekends. so it's cool.

i just cant wait to see him when he comes out. Hold on, both of us.

2008-09-15T12:26:00.002-03:00

next week's break. and i'm elated...
it's a break for the lect/tut to delay so i can catch up.
i'm not really lagging in lects but i would love to complete ALL my readings, recollect my thoughts before 2nd half sem.
in other words, i'm looking forward to Mug on break!!!! and i'm not working for F1. it's not worth risking/dedicating my studies/time to the event for cash/experience yet.

i would Need my break time.

on the list are
2 term tests
1 field trip report, 1 project on Hawker Centre (heh)
1 essay on circles vs grids (?)
1 psy research paper (hmmm)

it's okay. their deadlines are quite a spreadout. its a close shave to death if they're all cling close tgt. but to come again, dying in a wondrous death is nice; my essay topics are fun and difficult to start.
whatever it is, i shall WORK ON IT. :)

not to forget, i've joined an overseas community project at Cambodia: Project Sang Khem (Hope). and i'm under fundraising team! what an experience...
heading over this Dec 12-28. Yup... gonna spend Xmas at Cambodia with the people :) and then gonna miss Jeremy, jeremy and you ppl at Sg.

i'm having meetings from 8-9+pm on tuesday for this project. schedule is Car wash, bazaar coming up for fundraising. Some time for teambonding.

And what a turnaround - my mom's supporting me on majoring on psy...just because of some newspaper article. Paradox.

But by the way! truly i can feel the distinction of a support (in this case from my mom) in what you want to do in life.
so yeah, its always lovely and really impt to have someone/people supporting in what you believe.

2008-08-31T07:43:00.003-03:00

oh fook. i'm terribly Stressed.

reason? I'm lost. i got these chunks of words in my head which refuse to be processed.
i'm going nuts w/o bolts!!!!!!!!!!!

oh fook. PLS PLS PLS WORK OUT...

2008-08-23T15:49:00.003-03:00

it's bloody 2.51am.
just watched tinywiny of ... consciously, 2hrs of OTH s5.
supposed to complete my Philosophy module's readings, sms jeremy b4 i head to bed.

readings...readings...readings.
yup. there's the lead in my sch life now.
and i'm not complaining...

three or four times i really had hard time understanding the context...
so try Re-reading pages of 30... many sets of those...in font like this making sense of this word?
not drawn to scale.

yeahs... might get a knack or two soon. i'm supposed to ask WHY WHY WHY.

well, you know there're uncountable times in ya life - in the bus, bed, toilet pooing, walking, shopping, gossiping -whatever, you will be wondering why, how, so? and answers following up, thinking around the circle, views as straight as light travels.

i wish I can take those down in the instant. on a notebook. on my darn phone.
they are actually answers to... MY EXAMS, ASSIGNMENTS, TUTORIAL!
yeah... so now i'm supposed to...programme myself to do it at my snap of the fingers...or when i'm at lecture, tuning in...or acty purely anytime, anywhere.

complicated?

hurhur...

Consider the following,
- ' What is the point of definitions?'
- ' Does it matter if we are not clear on what something means?'
- ' What is wrong with the claim that 'piety is what all the gods love' ?

Shall tell you if i bother after tutorial 1.

sch's at FASS, NUS

2008-08-10T05:46:00.003-03:00

I got 20MCs exemption. in other words i could graduate in 2.5yrs with Bch Degree/ 3.5 yrs with Hons degree. Let's just say i gonna make full use of my learning opportunities.
Sch's gonna start erm tomorrow. lectures only for the first week and i've yet to ballot for my tutorials. I'm still bidding for 1 more module... frustration at first. And sucks because my English lesson is allocated at Next Sem.. Dragging issue and there's no pt in assessing my essay-writing skills for this sem.

Currently I have 4 modules i bid successfully in my basket...

Introduction to Psychology
Making Sense of Society (Sociology)
SEA: A Changing region
Reason and Persuasion (Philosophy)

These modules are my first steps to majoring in... complex system i shall say and not bothered to explain.

Time table for 1st week

Monday Psychology (6-8pm)
Wed SEA (10-12pm) SOC (4-6pm) Talk abt hanging ard the sch.
Friday Philosophy (2-4pm)

study time...

"why do we fall? so to stand up again..."

2008-08-03T11:46:00.005-03:00

wensu has to take 4hours of english lessons per week
because she got a band 4 in QET.
Mind You!! Unlike your PSLE grades, Band 1 is the lowest and Band 5 is the exempted. yeah, so I'm acty at the edge of passing. maybe because my years of typing has caught up with me. I cant write an essay NEATLY for nuts...and i didn even re-read.
Told you jeremy, I was bound to fail.
bless her at the same time...

i feel i need it as a refreshment course anyway.
I shall.

and yeah, loooooser. Youth Olympic Village is staged at NTU instead of NUS because of the financial extras. oh sigh. The grass is always greener on the other side...
silly it sound, i was acty looking forward to volunteer/work at YOGame since its at NUS

Randomly...

2008-07-19T13:05:00.003-03:00

A view from the Sg Flyer on 14 July - After the LilliPutt Staff dinner.

Some of the people whom i enjoy working with: Yvonne and the guys :)
shall miss them dearly after 20 july.
Everyone works there. except Jeremy and Gordon - joining us and enjoying 50% off tix.

I love Percy family :) So adorable aint it?

And finally, look whom Jeremy & I met at Clementi Bus stop?
hahaha

René Descartes – of "I think, therefore I am"

2008-07-17T07:06:00.007-03:00

What I think, and that reflects what kind of person I'm.

Call me Ambitious or Putting on airs and graces?
Coming from a poly gives me that extra edge in a JCpeople-infested faculty?

It's nerve-racking to go full force in my degree -making full use of the flexibility, opportunities NUS offers. from student exchange progs (SEP) to the cultural exchange summer progs.

Quiver or shine under its proud-claimed flexibility degree structure.

Because of its flexibility, it can be a doom.
You gotta be damn meticulous the choosing of your modules.

major in Psychology/Sociology /Economics , minor in Philosophy/ Psychology / Economics
overseas programmes (Summer prog, SEP)
Mathematics & Statics modules
Research & Analysis modules
1 F.Lang module: French /German / Japanese
Buck up on Mandarin, on own accord. (laugh it loud people or assist me)
At least GPA 3.5 to achieve Honours Degree *i stress*

And that is academic-wise, Mister.
CCA?
scuba diving: Open-Water license

Like i'm leaping into a huge hole of doubts, suspense, wonder.
Leaping may mean a reckless or empowering jump.

Do you think i can complete this list by the end of my 3/4years?
That is Utopia.

I probably need hemorrhage in my head.

Okay. Go easy, like they say: Somewhere Along that Line, baby.
Dream baby, Dream. Try baby, Try...

Class 3 License finally.

2008-07-13T07:57:00.007-03:00

I have passed my TPPT at Kpg Ubi on 11 July 2008 on my first attempt!!
I'm proud of myself. :)
I can Now Drive, legally.

b4 the test, my instructor was saying that i could pass unless i'm very unlucky.

my luck nosedived when my drawn-lot slot was Route 7 which is the 2nd Suckest. because it covers the whole stretch of Euno link all the way pass the Paya-lebar exp and then U-turn back. I HAVE NEVER EVEN PRACTISED ON THAT ROUTE B4 WITH MY INSTRUCTOR.
I had no choice but to do my best.

And while waiting at the holding rm, each time a tester w sunglasses or ragged look came... i prayed for Not. interestingly, i'm the last one leaving the room.

Turned out everything was a blessing in disguise.
my tester was Friendly enough. and nice; as there was a major traffic jam along the Eunos link, he changed the test route. THAT was an advantage to both of us.

The test route which was short in my sense, didn even consist of a U-turn. Everything went so swiftly. i actually feared that i had failed when he asked me to turn back to Cdc so soon.

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QET on following Friday is my next challenge to overcome. i'm starting mugging on essay-writing. May I succeed... After that, enjoy my last few weeks of freedom till sch so-called commences on 4 August...

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Some updates for the past few weeks... i got Jeremy a Weber Go-Anywhere BBQ pit for his birthday prezzie. So he whooped up this meal for me at his place... Abodo corn, BBQ hot dog, Roast chicken and Mash potatoes ( both not pictured). Rockies, even teddy couldnlt resist.
Ladies, hold on to the guy who COOKS. Hahaha.

After a meal at FIVE STAR KG CHICKEN and a crazy whole of catching in a humid evening at upper bukit timah rd with cheehoe, kelvin, waiyew and shyboy tinwei. Jeremy's photographer.

A meal with secondary friends: terence(has lost weight), cephas(has gained weight) and yvonne (i'm still fatter than her! YAY!) at NYNY amk hub.
After 2 years since the first and last meal of NYNY at cityhall on 23 july 2006, it was at least better than the first time. They have no shortage of chocolate, cheese and pizza dough!

2008-07-09T11:31:00.002-03:00

it's very fearful whenever i thought how nature is perishing this fast...
works of nature, magnificent picturesque ...the sensation of standing on a vast of green land..
sitting on a helicopter, propelling around an active volcano or the Amazon.

I really hate to growing up...earning money so hard to go travelling and unable to appreciate these places. These re not one of the many consequences that we are going to face. I am still trying to convince myself why economic in this world has an upperhand than this raging issue.

Man is doing so, simply for Money.

2008-07-08T13:00:00.003-03:00

July - Month of Flamboyant.
Many stuff are pending...
Financial
University admission matters
Finale of driving ( i pray so)
QET
Officially quit part-time work at LilliPutt

Stay tuned for gd/bad news.

Reasons (or One reason) I'm starting to blog

2008-06-24T10:17:00.007-03:00

improve of lang & vocab (in terms of cursing, whining, praising, view of opinion)
engage myself in writing, "fierce writing" to be precise.
entering the era of essay-writing

Slices of my past cheesy life

Choose NUS FASS over NTU EEE & Appealling for NTU Bioeng
A SPCA Dogwalker Volunteer :D
Preparing for TP. in other words, enduring a ~~sour r/s~~ with my instructor.
A unfit Wensu. THINGS ARE GONNA CHANGE - STARTING JULY
Experience front-line svs at a fun-working/ work-to-bone environment
Tuitionnnnnnnn
Phuket, Tioman trips.

i'm still undecided on my major. (Psychology, Sociology, Communications&Media, philosophy? whattttt?)

i still *emphasis* have no idea about HOW THE HELL CORS BIDDING WORKS IN NUS. but yeah man, i anticipate the challenge.

eh, let me get thru my QET first.